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Grief does not disappear with time.
It settles into the body.
It shows up as the tight chest, the numbness, the exhaustion, the heaviness sitting behind your eyes long after everyone else believes you should be “over it.”
When the body does not feel safe, grief stays.
And when grief stays, life begins to shrink around it.
But you keep showing up.
You go to work.
You answer messages.
You take care of everyone around you.
But inside your body something feels frozen in the moment everything changed.
Grief Alchemy is the work of gently releasing that freeze so life can move again.
Not by forcing yourself to move on.
But by teaching your body and spirit that it is finally safe to soften.
What Happens When Grief Stays in the Body
When grief settles into the nervous system and is never released, it begins shaping how you live.
Your body remains on guard.
Your spirit becomes quieter.
And the life that once felt possible begins to feel farther away.
Women living with unresolved grief often experience:
• tension in the chest, jaw, womb, or hips
• emotional numbness or difficulty feeling joy
• fatigue that does not resolve with rest
• difficulty trusting themselves or their intuition
• withdrawing from love, connection, and desire
• a sense that life has paused while the world keeps moving
None of this is a sign of weakness.
It is what happens when the body has experienced loss and never received the support needed to release it.
Grief Alchemy exists to change that.
This Work Is For You If
• You have experienced loss, heartbreak, miscarriage, or a major life transition that still feels unresolved in your body
• Your body feels tense, numb, guarded, or chronically exhausted
• You have prayed, journaled, or talked about the loss, but something inside you still has not moved
• You are functioning in life but feel disconnected from yourself
• A part of you is ready to be free, but does not know how to release what the body is still holding
Big Love Grief Alchemy
A 1:1 Initiation
Grief Alchemy is a six-week private container where we work directly with the emotional and spiritual weight grief has placed on your body.
This work blends somatic release, spiritual practice, and intuitive grief guidance so the nervous system can soften and life can begin moving again.
Inside The Container
• Six private 1:1 sessions (75–90 minutes)
• Intuitive grief mapping
• Somatic and spiritual release practices
• Ritual support, including spiritual baths, head washing, or foot washing, as guided
• Devotional practices between sessions
What Happens Inside a Grief Alchemy Session
Each session is a quiet, intentional space where your body is allowed to tell the truth about what it has been carrying.
We begin by listening to what your nervous system is communicating in the present moment.
From there, I guide you through intuitive grief mapping to understand where grief has settled in the body and spirit.
Some sessions involve somatic release practices that allow emotion to move safely through the body. Other sessions may include prayer, ritual, or spiritual cleansing practices when appropriate. For long-distance participants, you will be guided through the ceremony via Zoom, and I can travel for an additional fee to execute the ritual or ceremony if you want that experience.
Nothing is rushed.
Your body sets the pace.
Over time, the tension, numbness, and spiritual heaviness grief created begin to soften, so clarity, breath, and life can return.
Why I Offer This Work
I came to this work through my own grief.
After leaving an abusive marriage, I discovered that changing my life externally did not immediately release the heaviness that was still living in my body.
Even after safety returned to my environment, grief and shock were still sitting in my chest and spirit.
My path into holistic healing led me to study under Queen Mother Efua Asha of In Grace Yoga Therapy, where I trained in womb wellness, trauma-informed spiritual care, and energy work, and was initiated as a medicine woman.
Today, I blend that training with my background as an educator, intuitive guide, and medicine woman to help women move through grief in ways that honor both the body and the spirit.
Grief Alchemy was created because I understand what it feels like when life moves forward while your body still carries the past.
Who This Work Is Not For
Grief Alchemy is deep, body-based spiritual work.
This container may not be the right fit if:
• You are looking for quick emotional bypassing or surface-level advice
• You are not ready to be present with your grief as it moves through the body
• You want someone to fix the pain for you instead of being guided through your own release
This work is for women who are ready to be supported as they move through grief with honesty, care, and spiritual grounding.
What Changes
As grief releases from the body, women often experience:
• deep emotional relief and calm
• renewed connection to intuition and spirit
• clarity about the next chapter of their life
• the return of desire, creativity, and personal power
• a renewed openness to love, joy, and abundance
Most importantly, you return to yourself.
Not the woman you were before the loss.
But the woman who survived it and is ready to live again.
If your body has been carrying grief that talking has not moved, this container was created for you.
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The Grief Release Portal is a three-week group container where we go deeper — into the womb, the solar plexus, the nervous system, and the spirit to do the sustained work of releasing what has been frozen for years.
"Why can't I move on, even though I know it's over?"
This is the question most women are carrying but don't say out loud. The answer is not that you are broken or weak. The answer is that grief has a location — and no one has ever taken you there.
That is what this container is for.
This is for you if:
You completed The Resurrection Ritual and know you need to go deeper
You are carrying frozen grief from a relationship, miscarriage, or a loss that was never fully mourned
Self-blame and regret are still running quietly in the background of your life
You want to release grief in a sacred, structured container — not just process it mentally
You are ready to feel safe in your softness again
What we cover:
Week 1
Understanding Stored Grief
Why grief lives in the body, why talking is not enough, and how to locate where it is stored in your womb, solar plexus, and nervous system.
Week 2
Releasing Self-Blame
The grief of regret, miscarriage shame, and blaming yourself for what happened or how it ended. This is the stuck point most women never move through.
Week 3
Reopening the Body
Womb tension, sacral shutdown, and why heartbreak turns women into armor. Reclaiming sensation, presence, and life force. Grief does not live in the mind; it lives in the body.
What Happens When Grief Stays
When grief stays in the body, it often looks like:
emotional numbness
tightness in the chest or throat
womb tension or shutdown
hyper-independence and guardedness
feeling spiritually disconnected
cycles of regret and self-blame
loss of personal power
lack of sexual desire and pleasure
Women who move through this container often experience:
• emotional release
• less self-blame and shame
• reconnection to their body
• renewed spiritual grounding
• the return of softness and desire for life
This is the beginning of your transformation of grief, and I am honored to facilitate it.
Communal Offering
Grief doesn’t just live in the heart. It stores itself in the womb — in every relationship that ended without closure and every loss that was never fully mourned. It roots in the solar plexus as self-blame, regret, and shame that quietly harden into tension you have learned to live around.
"Your body holds what your mind has already tried to release."
This is beyond a mindset problem. In order to see and feel the shift your heart and soul have been longing for, you have to travel within.
Which is why I designed this class. After watching my client shed years of shame, self-doubt, and resistance in a recent ceremony, I felt compelled to open this work to more women.
This is for you if:
You know you should be over it, but something in your body hasn't gotten the message
You are carrying grief from a relationship, a miscarriage, a loss, or a version of yourself you left behind
The self-blame and regret still live in your gut, even when your mind has moved on
You feel shut down, heavy, or disconnected from your body and your softness
You are ready to release what talking alone could not move
What we will do together
Inside this 90-minute live session, I will teach you why grief and shame are stored in the womb and solar plexus specifically, what is happening in your body, why it has stayed, and why it is not your fault that it hasn't moved.
Then we go into ritual. You will be guided through a sacred release practice to begin moving what has been frozen through breath, prayer, and embodied presence.
You do not need to prepare anything. Just show up as you are with a white or yellow candle and a glass of water.
Details
Date: Sunday, July 11, 2026, at 2 pm EST | Live on Zoom
Length: 90 minutes
Capacity: Limited to 10 women
Replay available for 24 hours
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