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Grief does not disappear with time.
It settles into the body.
It shows up as the tight chest, the numbness, the exhaustion, the heaviness sitting behind your eyes long after everyone else believes you should be “over it.”
When the body does not feel safe, grief stays.
And when grief stays, life begins to shrink around it.
But you keep showing up.
You go to work.
You answer messages.
You take care of everyone around you.
But inside your body something feels frozen in the moment everything changed.
Grief Alchemy is the work of gently releasing that freeze so life can move again.
Not by forcing yourself to move on.
But by teaching your body and spirit that it is finally safe to soften.
What Happens When Grief Stays in the Body
When grief settles into the nervous system and is never released, it begins shaping how you live.
Your body remains on guard.
Your spirit becomes quieter.
And the life that once felt possible begins to feel farther away.
Women living with unresolved grief often experience:
• tension in the chest, jaw, womb, or hips
• emotional numbness or difficulty feeling joy
• fatigue that does not resolve with rest
• difficulty trusting themselves or their intuition
• withdrawing from love, connection, and desire
• a sense that life has paused while the world keeps moving
None of this is a sign of weakness.
It is what happens when the body has experienced loss and never received the support needed to release it.
Grief Alchemy exists to change that.
This Work Is For You If
• You have experienced loss, heartbreak, miscarriage, or a major life transition that still feels unresolved in your body
• Your body feels tense, numb, guarded, or chronically exhausted
• You have prayed, journaled, or talked about the loss, but something inside you still has not moved
• You are functioning in life but feel disconnected from yourself
• A part of you is ready to be free, but does not know how to release what the body is still holding
Big Love Grief Alchemy
A 1:1 Initiation
Grief Alchemy is a six-week private container where we work directly with the emotional and spiritual weight grief has placed on your body.
This work blends somatic release, spiritual practice, and intuitive grief guidance so the nervous system can soften and life can begin moving again.
Inside The Container
• Six private 1:1 sessions (75–90 minutes)
• Intuitive grief mapping
• Somatic and spiritual release practices
• Ritual support, including spiritual baths, head washing, or foot washing, as guided
• Devotional practices between sessions
What Happens Inside a Grief Alchemy Session
Each session is a quiet, intentional space where your body is allowed to tell the truth about what it has been carrying.
We begin by listening to what your nervous system is communicating in the present moment.
From there, I guide you through intuitive grief mapping to understand where grief has settled in the body and spirit.
Some sessions involve somatic release practices that allow emotion to move safely through the body. Other sessions may include prayer, ritual, or spiritual cleansing practices when appropriate. For long-distance participants, you will be guided through the ceremony via Zoom, and I can travel for an additional fee to execute the ritual or ceremony if you want that experience.
Nothing is rushed.
Your body sets the pace.
Over time, the tension, numbness, and spiritual heaviness grief created begin to soften, so clarity, breath, and life can return.
Why I Offer This Work
I came to this work through my own grief.
After leaving an abusive marriage, I discovered that changing my life externally did not immediately release the heaviness that was still living in my body.
Even after safety returned to my environment, grief and shock were still sitting in my chest and spirit.
My path into holistic healing led me to study under Queen Mother Efua Asha of In Grace Yoga Therapy, where I trained in womb wellness, trauma-informed spiritual care, and energy work, and was initiated as a medicine woman.
Today, I blend that training with my background as an educator, intuitive guide, and medicine woman to help women move through grief in ways that honor both the body and the spirit.
Grief Alchemy was created because I understand what it feels like when life moves forward while your body still carries the past.
Who This Work Is Not For
Grief Alchemy is deep, body-based spiritual work.
This container may not be the right fit if:
• You are looking for quick emotional bypassing or surface-level advice
• You are not ready to be present with your grief as it moves through the body
• You want someone to fix the pain for you instead of being guided through your own release
This work is for women who are ready to be supported as they move through grief with honesty, care, and spiritual grounding.
What Changes
As grief releases from the body, women often experience:
• deep emotional relief and calm
• renewed connection to intuition and spirit
• clarity about the next chapter of their life
• the return of desire, creativity, and personal power
• a renewed openness to love, joy, and abundance
Most importantly, you return to yourself.
Not the woman you were before the loss.
But the woman who survived it and is ready to live again.
If your body has been carrying grief that talking has not moved, this container was created for you.
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Grief does not live in the mind; it lives in the body.
And when the body does not feel safe, grief stays.
The relationship may have ended.
You may have prayed, journaled, and talked about what happened.
However, a tightness still lingers in your chest. Your womb is often cramping, and your bleeding is irregular. Essentially, your body is still bracing for something that is already over.
This is what stored grief feels like, and it will not move through talking alone. Ritual, prayer, and somatic release are required to support this release.
The Grief Release Portal is a 3-week container designed to help women begin releasing the grief their body has been holding.
Who This Is For
This container is for you if:
• the relationship ended, but your body still feels stuck in it
• you feel regret about how things unfolded
• you find yourself blaming yourself for the loss
• you feel emotionally numb or guarded
• your body feels tense, heavy, or shut down
• you want to reconnect with softness but don’t know how
Many women believe they are “over it,” but their nervous system is still holding the grief.
What Happens When Grief Stays
When grief stays in the body, it often looks like:
• emotional numbness
• tightness in the chest or throat
• womb tension or shutdown
• hyper-independence and guardedness
• feeling spiritually disconnected
• cycles of regret and self-blame
Grief that is not released becomes something the body carries.
The work inside this container begins moving it.
What Happens Inside the Portal
Over three weeks, we begin releasing grief that has settled into the nervous system.
Week One: Where Grief Lives in the Body
You will learn how heartbreak embeds in the nervous system and womb space. Through body-mapping practices, you will identify where grief has been living in your body.
Week Two: Releasing Regret and Self-Blame
Many women carry silent shame after a breakup, miscarriage, or loss. This week focuses on releasing the self-blame that keeps grief trapped in the body.
Week Three: Returning to Softness
Once grief begins to move, the body can soften again. Through ritual and prayer, we begin to restore safety in the body and reconnect with feminine energy.
The Result
Women who move through this container often experience:
• emotional release
• less self-blame and shame
• reconnection to their body
• renewed spiritual grounding
• the return of softness and desire for life
This is the beginning of the transformation of grief.
Communal Offering
If your grief feels deeper than the relationship, harder to release, and impossible to “think your way out of” this is where you learn why.
Reserve Your Spot Now
Early Bird $77 $33 | This workshop will be $77
You’ve journaled, vented, and told yourself it's OVER.
So why is your body still holding on?
Why does it still feel active even when the relationship is done?
Because this grief didn’t start with you.
And until you understand what you’re actually carrying, you will keep trying to heal it the wrong way.
This is not just heartbreak.
This is:
learned emotional endurance
inherited silence
normalized self-abandonment
and grief that was never processed
You’re not just releasing a person.
You’re confronting:
everything you were taught love requires
everything the women before you had to tolerate
everything your body still believes is normal
And that’s why this feels so hard to let go.
This workshop is for you if:
You left the relationship, but it still lives in your body
You feel like your grief is heavier than it “should” be
You keep revisiting something you know wasn’t aligned
You struggle to fully release, even when you want to
You feel emotionally tied in a way you can’t explain
You’ve done “the work” but something still isn’t shifting
And the one most women don’t say out loud:
You feel like you’re carrying something that isn’t just yours
You don’t need more time.
You don’t need more thinking.
You don’t need another conversation about closure.
You need to understand:
👉 what part of this grief is yours
👉 what part of this was inherited
👉 and how to actually release it from your body
Because awareness without release is the reason why you still feel stuck.
Inside this workshop, you will:
Identify the exact pattern you inherited around love and loss
Understand why your body is still holding onto this relationship
Separate your personal grief from inherited emotional patterns
Learn where grief is stored in your body and why it hasn’t moved
Be guided through a live ancestral release process
Leave with a clear emotional shift you can actually feel
This is not a talking session.
This is where something moves.
I don’t teach surface-level healing.
I work with women who refuse to allow grief and this relationship to dictate their life.
Women who:
are aware
are reflective
have already tried to move forward
but still feel something unresolved in their body.
This work goes deeper because it has to.
“What if I’ve already done therapy or other healing work?”
That’s exactly why you’re here.
You’re past the need to understand your emotions.
It’s time to release what your body has been holding for generations.
“What if I’m not sure this is ancestral?”
If your grief feels disproportionate, repetitive, or hard to release there is a deeper layer at play.
You don’t need to name it perfectly to benefit from this.
“What if I’m not ready to fully let go?”
You don’t have to force anything.
This workshop creates the conditions for your body to release what it’s ready to.
You can keep carrying this.
Keep replaying it.
Keep revisiting it.
Keep trying to process it the same way.
Or…
You can interrupt it.
Not months from now.
Not “eventually.”
Now.
Inherited Grief Workshop
🕊 Live 90-Minute Experience
🕊 Guided Ancestral Release Process
🕊 Replay Access (with Premium Option)
🕊 Integration Support Audio (Premium Tier)
Early Bird: $33
Regular: $77
At some point, you have to decide:
Am I going to keep carrying this…
or am I ready to release it?
Because this doesn’t leave with time.
It leaves when you do the work to let it go.
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Saturday, April 25th | 3 pm EST | Virtual
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